The Situation of My Life

You are now connected on Messenger. Andrew Hi, Jason ! Do you remember me ? Justin Gross, who I had lunch with a year or two ago, told me you went to Cornell. How did you enjoy going there ? Best wishes, Andrew B. Noselli Jason Szporn Hey Andrew! Of course I remember you. Here are my two strongest memories: 1. You patiently explaining D&D to me in your living room; and 2. You, I, and Michael Goldfarb attempting to create a a whirlpool in your above ground backyard swimming pool by continuing to move around the edge counter-clockwise. Did those happen, or did I make up those memories? You're literally the only person on Earth that can tell me... Andrew i think those are real memories ! his name is Michael Goldfarb and he lives now in Massachusetts, in Concord, having just arrived from Oakland, California with his HUSBAND, Anthony Russell i see you live in Minnesota now, looking forward to the Vikings this season ? right now I am listening to Neil Young's "Prairie Wind" CD and reading Thomas Hardy's "Wessex Tales" i had a brain injury from an auto accident in 1991 i also have schizophrenia and double-vision, causing me to be disabled i live in senior housing in Plymouth, Massachusetts - a very nice setting i have a blog i update sometimes http://www.andrewbnoselliwriting.blogspot.com The Catholic Life of the Heart andrewbnoselliwriting.blogspot.com Jason Szporn What I remember about Michael is that he liked Ford cars and the Beatles. Actually come to think of it he was pretty prescient about the Beatles. I didn't like them till much later. I'm a Neil Young fan too. Best concert I ever saw. I think my mom had run into yours a while back and might have told me something about your car accident. Sorry to hear that. But I am looking forward to catching up with what's been going on with you on that blog! Andrew i have a lot of free time and can as much as you like i saw neil young with sonic youth at the NJ Meadowlands Arena in 1991, about six months before my accident (now I'm listening to Steely Dan, they went to Bard College, like me!) my sister's boyfriend bought me several beatles albums when i got my first stereo at age 15, revolver, the white album and rubber soul - so i've been listeningto the beatles my whole life my personal favorites, besides the beatles are bob dylan, the grateful dead, the rolling stones, chet baker, van morrison, miles davis and john coltrane i never had a Ford car but I did have a Saturn coupe, which was a GM car the best concert i ever saw was david crosby at b.b. king's in new york on 42nd street i used to live in rutherford NJ and take the bus into manhattan every day - i was working as a stockbroker at w.j. nolan & co. on september 11, 2001 i had a girlfreind named mary ruggerio who was in a film with john tuturro and olympia dukakis at the time and she looked just like marilynj monroe and behaved like her, too ! then afer 9/11 i joined new york life insurance company at central park south and, later, at 120 broadway - across the street from "ground zero" during the period of time i had a girlfriend named annie armstrong who lived 440 W. 34th st. she was a famous editor, we used to go dancing at tavern on the green in central park Andrew i loved her to the point of obsession and was forced to check into a psychiatric hospital in washington township NJ - my file was stamped "Psychotic Reaction" i didn't really make much $ on wall street, as i put all of my clients into global crossing, which went bankrupt, i had 2 choices, global crossing or charter communications and i picked the wrong one Andrew i then opened my own insurance/investment business as an independent broker selling policies and securities thru AIG - i was very conservative and i sold government securities, annuities and bonds - but AIG, too, went bankrupt and i developed mental problems at about the same time Andrew after i got out of the mental hospital i had a romance with a Jewish woman who sang opera and owned an oil well in North Dakota i don't wish to "possess" women anymore because i now take 20 mg of celexa every night - apparently i was depressed, too, in addition to my cognitive disorder JUL 18TH, 6:30PM Jason Szporn It sounds like we have pretty similar musical tastes. It also looks like you've wanted down a pretty difficult road. I commend you for keeping your head up! Ok, I'm off to go camping for a few days. In the meantime, put on some Dylan for me and I'll check out that blog! walked* not wanted Andrew thanks for your response, jason. enjoy camping with your family. i look forward to chatting with you in the future ! best, abn JUL 19TH, 12:24AM 7:38AM Andrew Hi, Ari ! Ari Mendelson Hello. Andrew you're up early ! Ari Mendelson I've been up for 3 hours. Andrew i've been up since 5 am too ! because i slept yesterday during the day normally im not up this early do you miss new york ? Ari Mendelson I get up 4:30 every weekday morning I do not miss New York one bit. Andrew that's very early ! i miss the pizza ! Ari Mendelson I don't eat pizza. no wheat at all. Andrew do you eat eggs ? Ari Mendelson four of 'em a day. Andrew im listening to andres segovia on pandira ! Ari Mendelson he was great. Andrew im listening to "Estudio" you said yesterday that mick jones looks like him ! i guess paul rodgers lost his voice ? the pre-market open shows the dow futures up 63 points ! this is really incredible ! Ari Mendelson I don't know about Paul Rodgers. But Foreigner's new lead singer was excellent. I also don't know much about the markets. Andrew do you have any $ in the market ? Ari Mendelson Only a few hundred million. Andrew lol did you make all that loot at the car ? bar Ari Mendelson Mostly bank robbery. ANd random street hold-ups Andrew i see -- and much from laundering ? lol i put all my client's money in global crossing, when i should have chosen to put it in Charter Communications -- thats my main regret ! i have read 41 books this year ! henry miller says the jews, like the Chinese, pay an undue respect to the written word you should read him sometime -- i'd be curious to know what you think Ari Mendelson How much respect is due? And if there is more respect paid than due, what is the bad result? Andrew i wrote about the pitfalls of such type of thinking, commonly dubbed "logocentrism", in grad school - but i forget the specific antonomies it generates Ari Mendelson I'm sure there are pitfalls. But there are pitfalls to all kinds of thinking. There are advantages to logocentrism as well. Andrew it's all about western thinking since the dawn of civilization being founded on oppositional structures and all the philosophers and thinkers up to marx being interpretive sketches at diagnosing the human state of affairs in the metaphysical world, which they saw as fundamentally oppositional the logocentric ideology is at the root of a political system of oppression and domination and, as such, it thrives on a hierarchical system of judgment deconstruction is an attempt to extirpate the type of logocentric thinking that has been the model for western culture since the time of the ancient greeks unlike derrida and habermas, i showed in my graduate thesis how these oppositions can be overcome have you made coffee yet ? 3:06PM Andrew logocentrism is part of the illusion that is the foundation of phonocentrism, which supposes the existence of perfect self-presence and of the immediate possession of meaning. the history of western culture which carries within it this phonocentric need led to the development of a systematic logocentric metaphysics. the bottom line is that line of relating to the world engendered the form of subjectivity ruled by the economic spirit of capitalism, including the urges to expand, dominate and colonize. Andrew i believe the advance of feminism is our civilization is a crucial element in our lives which, in my opinion, has its critical purpose in the broadening of our minds, the extension of our sensibilities and in addressing the binary laws of our logic by transitioning from masculine time to feminine space; this is of prime importance because modernity's overpowering concern with temporality ends the solipsistic corruption of the self, whereas a postmodern approach which elevates space over time (in theory) leads to an expansion of consciousness and to the overcoming of death as a negation of the self and the limit to one's existence. Andrew I'm cribbing from my master's thesis but that, essentially, is why logocentrism must be overcome.... FRI 3:58PM Andrew hi jason ! how was camping with your family ? do you like my blog ? FRI 6:51PM Jason Szporn Camping was great! Thanks for asking. I checked out your blog and it was fascinating. How long have you been writing it? Andrew i have 2 blogs, one is private where i just post news stories that blow my mind the public blog is more of a literary blog i have been working on these blogs for about the last ten years or so i can let you into my private blog, if you give me your email address, AND if it's a gmail address (eblogger, the weblogger site i use, seems to prefer gmail addresses, for some reason....) 8:29AM Jason Szporn I use my work email to email, and unfortunately it's not a Gmail address... So I'm curious and I can't remember - were you a practicing Catholic as a child? Your parents? If not, when did you become serious about it? 9:45AM Andrew i was baptized as an infant and raised in the Catholic church. i gave my life to Jesus Christ about six months before my car accident in 1991. 11:58AM Jason Szporn I see. Was there anything specific that happened that led you to give your life to Jesus Christ, or did it just kind of happen? Seen by Jason Szporn at 11:58am 1:53PM Andrew i think my sister's marriage in 1990 was kind of traumatic for me. also graduating from high school, i didn't know what i wanted to do. i had literary and artistic ambitions all thru school, yet the idea going to 'art school' both attracted and repelled me. Andrew the traumatic brain injury from a car accident in 1991, which changed the course of my life permanently, gave me time to think of a path for myself, it gave me time to mature, too. some time after my car accident, my mother went to a spiritualist and asked her about what happened to me. she was shocked when the spirit-woman said to her, "oh no, he asked for this to happen." my mother was stunned, completely flabbergasted -- but it was true. i had gone up to the Don Bosco Marion Shrine, which was a Catholic retreat and worship center behind my home when in lived on Woodlake Drive in Thiells, New York prior to my accident and i literally spoke to God in my head, saying, "I'm ready. Let it happen" and six months later, I very nearly lost my life.