Double revelation and the conception of Love

it looks like you made some friends when you went to the rally in boston, i hope you derive benefit from these activities ! SAT 9:52PM Jacob Goldfarb: You're my only true friend Andrew that's nice of you to say ! Jacob Goldfarb: It is, isn't it? Andrew yes it's very nice but isnt anthony a friend too ? Jacob Goldfarb: Ezer k'negdo Andrew please translate you're speaking in tongues tonight ! Jacob Goldfarb: Are your Google fingers broken? Andrew i dont go to google to look up every little thing that passes in conversation Jacob Goldfarb: Maybe if you did you be better at making conversation Andrew maybe youd be clear instead of being rude ! Jacob Goldfarb: I went to see my friend Kelly who's living in an interfaith seminarians house She's in rabbinical school Andrew is kelly a man or a woman oh i see Jacob Goldfarb: Another resident saw my kippah, and was like, "can I ask you a question?" Andrew yes and ? Jacob Goldfarb: I was like, "is it going to be obnoxious?" Andrew whats a kippah ? Jacob Goldfarb: ah yarmulke Andrew oh you wear one now ? Jacob Goldfarb: Since 1995. Andrew oh now i remember that you do ok, please continue Jacob Goldfarb: Anyway as it turned out his question was, "how can we believe in a God that answers prayers when He didn't answer the prayers of the screaming children in the gas chambers?" Andrew i pray to god for the red sox to beat the yankees Jacob Goldfarb: And I was like, "what is with the Christians making dumb Holocaust comments today?" Andrew this guy was a christian who asked you that question ? Jacob Goldfarb: Of course Andrew he sounds like a jew to me a jew in bad faith Jacob Goldfarb: I asked him why he would blame God when the fault lies in 2000 years of Christian antisemitism? Andrew i dont know so much about the history of antisemitism but i know it first appeared in print in germany in 1873 Jacob Goldfarb: Yeah, good. Let's use "Jew-hatred" instead. Andrew ok, well there were roman vs. jewish wars way back Jacob Goldfarb: And in between then and the Holocaust? Andrew ghettoization, i assume Jacob Goldfarb: That was the best of it! Andrew but you have israel now ! Jacob Goldfarb: Does that make you feel less guilty? Andrew i dont feel guilty in that way i have schizophrenia and i have difficulty seeing and walking Jacob Goldfarb: And those are your good qualities! Andrew lol and my eeg shows i have temporal slowing Jacob Goldfarb: You should show it to Schopenhauer Andrew ok i will jews are definitely not part of my life, although i have many jewish facebook friends Jacob Goldfarb: Jews no better than to hang out with you Andrew they all, like you, use correct capitalization and punctuation Jacob Goldfarb: *know Andrew i "hang out" with literally no one Jacob Goldfarb: You need to get out more! Andrew i go out with my mother sometimes aside from that i never leave my apt. Jacob Goldfarb: You must be pale! Andrew yes i also have vitamin D deficiency Jacob Goldfarb: Maybe if you stop being an asshole I'll come visit you. Andrew im not an asshole i just dont take chatting seriously Jacob Goldfarb: What do you take seriously? Andrew my blog and literature and philosophy Jacob Goldfarb: You mean "literature and philosophy by European Christian men" 😉 Andrew yes mostly 100%, i guess i did read a book by hannah arendt recently shes a woman Jacob Goldfarb: jewish even Andrew yes ivar teaches chinese philosophy Jacob Goldfarb: I remember him reading Lao Tsu when I was 15 Andrew i do too but i think he does his students a dis-service students should be taught the great western historical thinkers Jacob Goldfarb: Like Betsy deVos? Andrew i dont know if thats what she thinks, is it ? the first week at RCC we read aristotle's "poetics" and nietzsche's "the birth of tragedy" and were asked to write a paper on either one are you still there ? Jacob Goldfarb: yeah just bored Andrew i thought you were driving at something, a point you wanted to make ? Jacob Goldfarb: yeah I got tired! Andrew well, i think you ought to read more Jacob Goldfarb: I think you need to get laid more Andrew go to amazon and download a kindle i got obsessed with women so much i had a psychotic reaction Jacob Goldfarb: That's why I swore off women entirely! Andrew well, i have read over 40 books this year, i couldnt have done that if i wasnt taking celexa Jacob Goldfarb: What happens after we die? Andrew im not sure, but i think we re-join God, like atomistically Jacob Goldfarb: And what happens to our consciousness? Andrew i think it is expanded Jacob Goldfarb: Say more Andrew im not certain what happens to our individual ego.... and i think it is different according to our role in life but i know what i was contacted by god it was preceded by a time when i thought deeply about jesus and the apostles and another time, when i was desperate for a woman, i said to myself, god i wish you would send me a woman and there was a bob dylan song playing and i said to myself, in my HEAD, i said, If there is a god, send me a woman named zimmerman, and then i will believe in you and a few weeks later i got an email from a woman and i just had her initials "G.Z." Jacob Goldfarb: Who was she? Andrew and i wrote back, i know who you are and i am waiting for you and she wrote back and she said her name was Gabriella Zimmerman and we had a love affair in Rutherford New Jersey and i have faith in God ! Jacob Goldfarb: woah Andrew i dont know anyone who has had that experience, i havent even read about such an experience do you believe me ? c.g. jung says god is not to be understood as differentiated from the psyche do you believe me ? you should read my blog to understand me more www.andrewbnoselliwriting.blogspot.com Jacob Goldfarb: sorry i had to go plug in my computer Andrew ok can you continue to chat ? Jacob Goldfarb: yeah Andrew i was watching a football game on FOX Sports but i can chat up until 11 PM fox channel #706 so what do you think of my revelatory tale ? Jacob Goldfarb: Eldad, Medad, and Noselli! Andrew who is eldad and medad ? Jacob Goldfarb: You need to read more. Andrew one of the things about being educated is that you can explain things to others Jacob Goldfarb: https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Eldad_and_Medad Eldad and Medad - Wikipedia Eldad and Medad are mentioned in the Book of Numbers, and are described as having prophesied among the Israelites, despite the fact that they had remained in the camp, while 70 elders had gone to the tabernacle outside the camp to receive the ability to prophesy from God.[1] According to the narrati... en.wikipedia.org Andrew oh i see my talent for prophesying ended in madness and i am only a reader now that i take 8 mg of antipsychotic Risperidone daily Jacob Goldfarb: Being a prophet is no fun. Andrew i concur i am staying up till 2 am tonight ! Louisville is beating Purdue, 32-23 tomorrow i am purchasing Paul McCartney's "Flowers in the Dirt" -- a 2-CD version -- from Amazon ive purchased all of the mccartnehy re-issues except off the grounbd and band on the run jake, you still havent said anything about my experience ? Jacob Goldfarb: I said woah And that prophecy is no fun Andrew i am asking for your opinion on the validity of my experience ? Jacob Goldfarb: Why do you need my opinion? Andrew it would mean a lot to me Jacob Goldfarb: It happened to you? Andrew yes, just as i related it Jacob Goldfarb: Of what consequence, then, is anyone's opinion about it? Andrew spoken like a rabbi, i guess Jacob Goldfarb: Yeah well How did it make you feel? Andrew loved and i think im going to meet dylan in the afterworld Jacob Goldfarb: That sounds incredibly comforting. Like you were safe and protected. Andrew yes, and now i am with a woman whose name starts with "M" -- my mother, Maryellen Noselli Jacob Goldfarb: You are "with" her? Andrew as a son who honors and protects her as best as i can she lives quite close to me we chat daily on the phone, not thru facebook Jacob Goldfarb: Who do you protect her from? Andrew from her own mental entanglements Jacob Goldfarb: uh oh Andrew what ? she is depressed Jacob Goldfarb: Oy I'm sorry Andrew at least she takes her medicine my father self-medicates with wine and other spirits Jacob Goldfarb: My mom eats pills Andrew what kind of pills ? Jacob Goldfarb: All kinds of pills Andrew oxicodone ? Jacob Goldfarb: Everything Andrew oh boy, does it worry you ? Jacob Goldfarb: There's nothing I or anyone else can do about it Andrew there's such a thing as an "intervention" ? Jacob Goldfarb: Norman enables her Andrew does she "doctor shop" ? Jacob Goldfarb: I don't know how exactly She has lots of medical conditions Andrew is she on opiates ? say banana if you mean yes Jacob Goldfarb: Banana apple pear guava everything Andrew it can lead to taking heroin, i understand in mass. we have northeast health services, where you can get weekly help for stuff like that Jacob Goldfarb: She went to rehab for a month Andrew thats where i go because i have a psychotic disorder she needs to continue rehab - New York is backward when it comes to mental health Jacob Goldfarb: She said she "was better." Andrew but you obviously disagree, right ? Jacob Goldfarb: You dont get better. That's not how this works. Andrew well, if the behaviour is continuing, then you must do something about getting her the he;lp that she needs Jacob Goldfarb: Like what? Andrew get her to see a psychological counselor shes probably depressed too - most women are Jacob Goldfarb: She's a child. Both my parents are. Andrew well, here in Plymouth, they have "drop-in" centers for anyone dealing with these sorts of problems there's more outreach here in mass, probably because of the kennedys im going to bed - goodnight jacob